Soulful Poems for the Tender Hearted Souls
Redemption
Trivializing
Eroding who I am
Ever so subtly
So I don’t understand
Wetiko Wetiko
Wetiko Wetiko
Wetiko I see
Wetiko in you
Wetiko in me
Wetiko everywhere
And nowhere to be found
That’s how Wetiko gets around
Black Sheep
Yes, I am the black sheep
The one you abuse
The outcast, excluded
And disapproved
Yes, I am the scapegoat
The one you disown
Abandon, neglect
And continuously blame
I’m the one you oppress
And insidiously shame…
Ridiculed, rejected
I’m the one you ignore
‘Cause I don’t play your games anymore…
I challenge, set boundaries
And face you with truth
I speak up
But you don’t approve
Bullied and threatened
But I will not comply
I confront the family system
When you turn a blind eye
Dismissed, disrespected
I’m the one you attack
When your loyalty is questioned
And your morality lacks
Doomed ‘the bad one’
‘Cause I don’t follow your rules
Of lies and deceptions
And this life of denial
With twisted perceptions
Feeling I’m always on trial
Discarded and used
‘Cause you think I am weak
But it’s really your fear
Of exposing the secrets you keep
Your love is damaged
It’s all a facade
Pretending and faking
So you won’t fall apart
Judged and criticized
‘Cause I choose for myself
I am not committed
To living your hell
Humiliated, shunned
I can’t do anything right
Deemed worthless
No matter how hard I try
I’m the one you call crazy
‘Cause I won’t sell my soul
I am the one
You can’t control
This role you assigned
That I can never escape…
Entraps you in patterns
Can’t you just see?
You feed your additions
And remain in pain
Yes make me the villain
But that’s all in vain
You say “we’re a family”
But you’re sickly enmeshed
Dysfunctional, wounded
In constant
Psychological distress
I know I bother you
For me being me
‘cause I gave myself permission
To be free…
My lifestyle and values
Sets me apart
Being true to myself
I live from my heart
Yes, I am the black sheep
The scapegoat that sees
That wetiko has you
All tied and bound
Keeping you
In this battleground
Yes, I am the black sheep
And that ruffles your core
You gave me the label
But I choose to ignore
Yes, I am the black sheep
‘Cause I won’t live a lie
I am the black sheep
Because I defy
Virginity
You took it from me
Savagely
Plastered and barely conscious
I had no choice but to be
My Soul is still intact.
It’s Time…
They’re calling me
Yet again
Cawing and cawing
The won’t leave me be
Gnawing for me to see…
To see my time has come
And long gone
And why I’m still here
Not moving on…
It’s time they say
This time for real
You must walk on dear
Or we’ll tear you in two
Leaving behind the scared wounded you
We’ll guide you and hold you
We won’t let you fall
Take that first step,
we’ll do it all…
Your dreams await you
Magic is at your door
Let your Soul emerge now
So the real you can soar!
Please Love Me
I was good mummy
You didn’t need to beat me
Mummy I am good
Why don’t you like me?
I shut up when you beat me
Just as I was told
I am good mummy
I swear I won’t even tell this to a soul
I won’t upset you
I will be nice
I will look after you
Even if I’m up all night
I will be good mummy
I will do everything you please
I will be good…
Mummy, please like me…
You don’t have to love me
I just want you to be nice
I don’t like making you angry
Mummy, you’re always right
Mummy I am a good girl
Why can’t you see?
I love you so much mummy
Even when you beat me
I just want you to hug me
And tell me that you care
Mummy, I want you to be proud of me
When I blew you a kiss in the air
Mummy, you said I’m not pretty
But at least I’m a good girl
I still love you when you ignore me mummy
And even you lie
And tell everyone your mistake was mine
I love you mummy
Why can’t you see?
That everything I do
Is to make you love me.
I am good mummy
Even if you don’t know
Mummy, I am good
One day you will see
And you will stop beating me.
Mummy, you can see I am good
God will show you if you ask
I am good mummy
I don’t know what else to do
To prove to you my love is true
I am good mummy
I’m sorry you’re upset
Mummy, I promise I will be good
I will try my best ‘til I’m dead
Mummy, can you hear me?
I love you just as you are
Mummy, can you forgive me?
For not being good enough
Please love me mummy
I will give you my heart.
Starved
I’m starving for love
Black Heart
Black heart
Cold heart
Heart of stone
Your poisoned darts
Pierced my heart
But the wound
Became my art
The venom spread
Took over my head
And almost
Got me dead
You cast your spells
To raise my hell
But your demons
Taught me well…
I watched and learned
Yes, I got burnt
But these battle scars
I earned…
Your darkness seeped
Into the hearts asleep
But mine…
Was not yours to keep.
I laid low
Dampened my glow
Settled in black
Keeping track…
The underworld I roamed
Made it my home
And like the back of my hand
It became my land…
Although your toxin thrived
And diseased people’s eyes…
My heart saw through
What no one else knew
My contaminated heart
Was clean from the start
And sincere tears are the cure
To clean the impure
Wicked Heart
Icy Heart
Heart filled with hate
I broke your curse
It deeply hurt…
And I want you to know that
healing a black heart
Is never too late.
Sacred Insanity
I see visions
I have dreams
I feel the unseen…
My wisdom is erratic
My truth will not make sense
Chaos is my healing
Through destructive and unconventional ways
I will laugh at your sorrow
And doubt your certainty
I will shatter your perspectives
And disrupt your thinking ways
You will love me
You will hate me
Either way, I mirror your every trait.
I unearth the unconscious
And bring to life the unaware
I extinguish the light that blinds you
And ignite the darkness that transmutes
I ruffle everyone’s feathers
And upset the status quo
My being is your medicine
A gift I share with this world
So laugh, point the finger
And make me the fool…
My tricks are reserved for the wise
The humble
The brave
Those that truly want to see
And have the courage to face themselves…
Through this sacred insanity that plays out through me.