Soulful Poems for the Tender Hearted Souls

Redemption

Trivializing
Eroding who I am
Ever so subtly
So I don’t understand

Sensing
Diminished and reduced
Not able to grasp…
The abuse
Confused
Losing myself
Intensely questioning
How I felt
Humiliated, always
Set up to fail
Cause I stupidly missed
The fleeting detail
Sadism
The emotional kind
Destroying my soul
Torturing my mind
Forbidden
To be who I am
Born a sin
Guilty, I stand.
Rising
In the midst of hate
Repulsed by the poison
Of my fate
Reclaiming
Parts of myself
Fighting oblivion
While I walk through hell
Purging 
What is not mine 
Releasing the burdens 
Way past my time…
Throwing
The masks I wore
Standing my ground
Holding on to my core
Walking
In the light of my fire
The flame I rekindled
With my burning desire
Redemption
For now I see
And stand bravely
Confronting, the darkly.

Wetiko Wetiko

Wetiko Wetiko 
Wetiko I see
Wetiko in you
Wetiko in me
Wetiko everywhere
And nowhere to be found
That’s how Wetiko gets around

Wetiko is here
Wetiko is there
Wetiko is not fair
Wetiko distracts
Wetiko makes you blind
That’s how Wetiko plays with your mind
Wetiko is shady
Wetiko projects
Wetiko always neglects
Wetiko bewitch you
Wetiko make spells
And that’s how Wetiko raise hell
Wetiko will hook you 
Wetiko decepts 
Wetiko gets in your head 
Wetiko is greedy
And always wants more
That’s how Wetiko soar
Wetiko is evil
Wetiko perverse
Wetiko make things worse
Wetiko will kill you
That’s the Wetiko curse
Wetiko Wetiko
Wetiko you see
Wetiko destroys me
And gives me the cure
That’s why Wetiko is pure

Black Sheep

Yes, I am the black sheep
The one you abuse
The outcast, excluded
And disapproved

Yes, I am the scapegoat
The one you disown
Abandon, neglect
And continuously blame
I’m the one you oppress
And insidiously shame…

Ridiculed, rejected
I’m the one you ignore
‘Cause I don’t play your games anymore…
I challenge, set boundaries
And face you with truth
I speak up
But you don’t approve

Bullied and threatened
But I will not comply
I confront the family system
When you turn a blind eye

Dismissed, disrespected
I’m the one you attack
When your loyalty is questioned
And your morality lacks

Doomed ‘the bad one’
‘Cause I don’t follow your rules
Of lies and deceptions
And this life of denial
With twisted perceptions
Feeling I’m always on trial

Discarded and used
‘Cause you think I am weak
But it’s really your fear
Of exposing the secrets you keep

Your love is damaged
It’s all a facade
Pretending and faking
So you won’t fall apart

Judged and criticized
‘Cause I choose for myself
I am not committed
To living your hell

Humiliated, shunned
I can’t do anything right
Deemed worthless
No matter how hard I try

I’m the one you call crazy
‘Cause I won’t sell my soul
I am the one
You can’t control

This role you assigned
That I can never escape…
Entraps you in patterns
Can’t you just see?

You feed your additions
And remain in pain
Yes make me the villain
But that’s all in vain

You say “we’re a family”
But you’re sickly enmeshed
Dysfunctional, wounded
In constant
Psychological distress

I know I bother you
For me being me
‘cause I gave myself permission
To be free…

My lifestyle and values
Sets me apart
Being true to myself
I live from my heart

Yes, I am the black sheep 
The scapegoat that sees
That wetiko has you
All tied and bound
Keeping you
In this battleground

Yes, I am the black sheep
And that ruffles your core
You gave me the label
But I choose to ignore

Yes, I am the black sheep 
‘Cause I won’t live a lie
I am the black sheep
Because I defy 

Virginity

You took it from me
Savagely
Plastered and barely conscious
I had no choice but to be

Exposed
Powerless
And filled with shame
My dignity taken
Feeling it’s me to blame
No escape
Overpowered
Scared and in pain
You didn’t even know my name.
I cried silently
Enduring
Violently
While you disgraced me.
Contaminated
Filthy
And filled with disgust
In agony with every thrust.
Violated
Torn
And stained with profane
What you did was inhumane.
Devastated
Heartbroken
I didn’t tell a Soul
Instead made it my inner black hole.
Empty
Vacant
I abandoned myself
For years I went through hell.
Defeated
Surrendered
But my soul cannot be bought
You’re not the only monster I’ve fought.
Healing
Grieving
The light started to shine
Knowing my Soul is still mine.
You took it from me
Physically
And I can never get it back
Regardless
My Soul is still intact.

It’s Time…

They’re calling me
Yet again
Cawing and cawing
The won’t leave me be
Gnawing for me to see…

To see my time has come
And long gone
And why I’m still here
Not moving on…

It’s time they say
This time for real
You must walk on dear
Or we’ll tear you in two
Leaving behind the scared wounded you

We’ll guide you and hold you
We won’t let you fall
Take that first step,
we’ll do it all…

Your dreams await you
Magic is at your door
Let your Soul emerge now
So the real you can soar!

Please Love Me

I was good mummy
You didn’t need to beat me
Mummy I am good
Why don’t you like me?

I shut up when you beat me
Just as I was told
I am good mummy
I swear I won’t even tell this to a soul

I won’t upset you
I will be nice
I will look after you
Even if I’m up all night

I will be good mummy
I will do everything you please
I will be good…
Mummy, please like me…

You don’t have to love me
I just want you to be nice
I don’t like making you angry
Mummy, you’re always right

Mummy I am a good girl 
Why can’t you see?
I love you so much mummy
Even when you beat me

I just want you to hug me
And tell me that you care
Mummy, I want you to be proud of me
When I blew you a kiss in the air

Mummy, you said I’m not pretty
But at least I’m a good girl
I still love you when you ignore me mummy
And even you lie
And tell everyone your mistake was mine

I love you mummy
Why can’t you see?
That everything I do
Is to make you love me.

I am good mummy
Even if you don’t know
Mummy, I am good
One day you will see
And you will stop beating me.

Mummy, you can see I am good
God will show you if you ask
I am good mummy
I don’t know what else to do
To prove to you my love is true

I am good mummy
I’m sorry you’re upset
Mummy, I promise I will be good
I will try my best ‘til I’m dead

Mummy, can you hear me?
I love you just as you are
Mummy, can you forgive me?
For not being good enough
Please love me mummy
I will give you my heart.

Starved

You starved me of love 
You starved me of you 
Fed me crumbs of your closed heart 
So I can be with you…
 
I bought the bait
For a long little while 
But now, my heart won’t stay   
Won’t accept your love style.
 
I swallowed the hurt 
And poisoned my Soul
Danced with your shadow 
Just to feel whole 
 
You clipped my wings
So I couldn’t fly
But those little comments 
I can see now were lies 
 
I tarnished myself 
So you could be you 
Wounded us both 
To appease you 
 

I’m starving for love 

I’ve been starving for you 
I’m leaving now 
Finally…
Leaving you.

Black Heart

Black heart ⁣
Cold heart ⁣
Heart of stone⁣

Your poisoned darts ⁣
Pierced my heart⁣
But the wound ⁣
Became my art ⁣

The venom spread ⁣
Took over my head⁣
And almost ⁣
Got me dead ⁣

You cast your spells ⁣
To raise my hell ⁣
But your demons ⁣
Taught me well… ⁣

I watched and learned⁣
Yes, I got burnt ⁣
But these battle scars⁣
I earned… ⁣

Your darkness seeped ⁣
Into the hearts asleep⁣
But mine…⁣
Was not yours to keep. ⁣

I laid low⁣
Dampened my glow⁣
Settled in black ⁣
Keeping track…⁣

The underworld I roamed ⁣
Made it my home ⁣
And like the back of my hand⁣
It became my land… ⁣

Although your toxin thrived ⁣
And diseased people’s eyes… ⁣
My heart saw through ⁣
What no one else knew ⁣

My contaminated heart ⁣
Was clean from the start ⁣
And sincere tears are the cure ⁣
To clean the impure ⁣

Wicked Heart ⁣
Icy Heart ⁣
Heart filled with hate ⁣

I broke your curse⁣
It deeply hurt… ⁣

And I want you to know that ⁣
healing a black heart ⁣
Is never too late.⁣

Sacred Insanity

I see visions
I have dreams
I feel the unseen…

My wisdom is erratic
My truth will not make sense
Chaos is my healing
Through destructive and unconventional ways

I will laugh at your sorrow
And doubt your certainty
I will shatter your perspectives
And disrupt your thinking ways

You will love me
You will hate me
Either way, I mirror your every trait.

I unearth the unconscious
And bring to life the unaware

I extinguish the light that blinds you
And ignite the darkness that transmutes

I ruffle everyone’s feathers
And upset the status quo

My being is your medicine
A gift I share with this world

So laugh, point the finger
And make me the fool…

My tricks are reserved for the wise
The humble
The brave
Those that truly want to see

And have the courage to face themselves…
Through this sacred insanity that plays out through me.

Sacred Silence

Strangled 
By my truth unheard 
Witnesses 
Denying my every word 
Malice 
Conveniently concealed 
Making my wounds 
Unreal
Foreboding 
Reality threatening 
Maddening 
My mind unsettling 
Perceiving 
What the eye can’t see 
Immune to the virus 
Of insanity 
Projections 
That I stop on sight
Accepting
No point to fight
Silenced 
For that’s all I can be 
If they choose…
Not to see
Truth 
I know in my heart
Dismissed 
Won’t tear it apart 
Forgiving 
For they know not what they do 
Their unconscious acts 
I see through… 
Knowing
Deep in my core
My silent stance
Is my roar.