It all started with my grandmother. I grew up in Dubai but spent my summers with her in Brasil. She has always said that I’m her “cara-metade,” which in Portuguese literally means “the other half of my face” (similar to the English phrase “soul mate”).
Bahia, the state within Brasil where she lived, is very mystical, full of magic, mystery, ritual, and lots and lots of spiritual centers. They are on every corner like a pharmacy or grocery would be.
They are simple places, organized, and filled with spiritual doctors and mediums who offer their work as a gift.
We might pay using a kilo of beans, a few bags of rice, or money, if we had it. These centers always fascinated me! I was intrigued by everything occult and Bahia is certainly at the heart of all things mystical.
During one particular visit to a spiritual center during a summer visit with my grandmother and god mother, I was in an incredibly dark place and got taken to one of these centers. My inner pain had manifested in a sad spirit, a “goth” look, self harm, drug abuse, and an attitude of giving up. I simply hated myself and did not want to be here on planet earth.
My grandmother and god mother had my energy cleansed and took me to see a psychic doctor. It didn’t feel like the end of my pain; it felt like the beginning of my healing. I realised that I was slightly changed, though I couldn’t pinpoint why or how. I continued to struggle home in Dubai upon my return, but each summer I found the next level of healing: Colour Healing, Meditation Seminars, Spiritual healing, and lots more. It was as if The Creator knew I would need to be healed in stages.
At around the age of 18 during a summer in Brasil, I met a woman on my way to a yoga class. She was dressed in all white and I could smell a strong scent of incense. She asked if I might have some time. Her Reiki students were inside the mystical building she’d just left, and she was curious if I might like to try Reiki so her students could practice on someone. I agreed and within moments I was on a massage table with nearly 5 sets of hands touching me and hovering over me. It was like nothing I’d ever experienced in my life! It was incredible! I was floating, I was dreaming, I was flying, I was in heaven. They had to wake me and bring me back down to Earth, but I felt so peaceful that I begged for more! I returned every Wednesday afternoon for another euphoric hit of peace until one day the teacher asked me, “Why don’t you just learn Reiki?”
Weaving the spiritual realm into my being and recognising my ability to feel deeply the pain of others, I began to study Reiki. It was the first time I was able to connect my spiritual journey with my desire to go on an academic journey chasing this thing called “energy”.
As a born empath, I can naturally feel what your soul is experiencing, feelings and thoughts specifically. For most of my childhood and teenage years I was overwhelmed with this sensitivity. I have, over many years now, finely-tuned my gifts, and learned how to filter out the overwhelming emotional charge.
Starting from the time I was young, I experienced heartbreak. From the age of 3 experiencing trauma after trauma right up to the age of 27. Physical & emotional abuse left my heart vulnerable and with no tools for protection, I went on to attempt healing my pain with self-harm and drugs for many years.
That could have been the end of my story.
It has been a long hard road.. I had to face my weaknesses, look at my past in the eye, use my inner strength to reframe my shame, scrape off the bandaid on the wounds I hid so deeply, address my self-sabotaging patterns, embrace the dark side of my soul, and above all learn to love and accept myself.
And it was through this heart-core inner journey that I have healed myself from a lot of these core emotional wounds and hence I suffer no present-day symptoms of those atrocities, such as drug addiction, self-harm and many codependent and self-sabotaging patterns. It was not magic and I am still diving deeper on my inner journey. It was not overnight. But it took my getting to know myself and learning how to process my emotions and release these negative beliefs about myself, my past, and my purpose.
And because I did it, I know that you can do it too.
Tools & techniques I have acquired on my journey:
B.Sc (Hons) Health Sciences in Complementary Therapies from the University of Westminster London
VCTC Diploma in Complementary Therapies from Solihull College in Birmingham
Neuro-Linguistic Programming Practitioner
Feng Shui Practitioner
Reiki Master & Teacher
Violet Flame Reiki Practitioner
Theta Healing Practitioner
Spiritual Response Therapy
Access Bars Practitioner
Akashic Records Practitioner
Trance Healing & Communication
Melchizedek Method (Levels 1 & 2)